But you can’t get away from yourself. You can’t decide not to see yourself anymore. You can’t decide to turn off the noise in your head.
- Jay Asher, Thirteen Reasons Why (via fleshscars)Family Drama.
This shit fucking sucks, one because, you aren’t even the cause but somehow you get dragged into it. And in the end you end up getting blamed on for everything. Two because, it always has to start on a day when most of the family members are having a good day, and then that one idiot has to ruin it for everyone. Thanks a lot, for ruining the rest of the day for me -.-
A real relationship.
Has fights. Has trust. Has faith. Has tears. Has hurt. Has sweet smiles. Has genuine laughter. Has snorts because of the laughter. Has weird, stupid, unnecessary arguments. Has patience. Has communication. Has jealousy. & most importantly, love. It’s all just a mess that turns out to be a beautiful experience that can never be forgotten.
Me.
- I get jealous at the smallest things
- I get mad at the simplest things
- I get bored super fast
- I get annoyed easily
- I think negatively too much
- I forgive people that shouldn’t be forgiven
- I care too much
- I dislike a lot of things
- Sometimes, everything just bothers me
- When I fall for someone, I fall hard
Just when I’m about to forget about you.
Life finds some way to bring you back. Can life just stop fucking with me already? Are we supposed to be together or not?
I don’t know what I want anymore.
The past made me realize that what I want and what I need, are two different feelings. I’ve always wanted someone who can make me laugh…blah blah blah. But, what about what I need? What if I need someone who can make me laugh as well as listen to me, provide help when I need it, support me with my decisions. What the fuck do I want and what the fuck do I need? And more importantly, who is willing to be that person?
Memories.
It’s amazing how memories could come and go. We forget about what happened in the past, and one day, it would suddenly just hit us all at once and we’re there thinking about everything and breaking down because we begin to remember all the things we did, the feelings we had, the smiles we gave, and the laughs we shared. All the good and bad memories. Everything that made us happy is now just a memory and everything that gave us pain is now in the past. Looking back sucks, but then again, it reminds us about all those good times in the past that we shared together, and it reminds us how strong we are to have gotten through the pain we went through. The memories are what made us who we are now.
I’m nothing special,
I’m not cute or incredibly smart or funny. I’m awkward and shy and don’t know what to say most of the time. I don’t have any real talents that make me stand out, I don’t trust people easily and it’s hard for me to open up. I’m tired of having people think I’m different only to leave when they realize I’m really nothing special, so I’ll tell you right now, so don’t come into my life unless you’re truly willing to stay anyways.
i want to kiss you and hug you and hold you and play with your hair and sleep with you and make you laugh and stare at you and play games with you and make you win on purpose and cuddle with you at night and eat breakfast with you and then eat lunch and dinner with you and i wanna listen to music with you and cry with you and go to class with you and duel blog with you and i dont know i just want to do fucking everything with you
